“Find meaning. Distinguish melancholy from sadness. Go out for a walk. It doesn’t have to be a romantic walk in the park, spring at its most spectacular moment, flowers and smells and outstanding poetical imagery smoothly transferring you into another world. It doesn’t have to be a walk during which you’ll have multiple life epiphanies and discover meanings no other brain ever managed to encounter. Do not be afraid of spending quality time by yourself. Find meaning or don’t find meaning but “steal” some time and give it freely and exclusively to your own self. Opt for privacy and solitude. That doesn’t make you antisocial or cause you to reject the rest of the world. But you need to breathe. And you need to be.”—Albert Camus, from Notebooks, 1951-1959
I know that we have not been friends for too long, but I must be honest. It saddens me to see how little self respect you have. To let someone who you seem to be so blindly in love with, break you down to to dust and remind you of your imperfections. Why do you spend your time constantly trying, constantly seeking his attention when he seems to always be looking at someone else? It hurts to see how much self harm you’ve done to yourself in the short time I have known you. It hurts to see how much you have given up on yourself for an ideal image that is not you.
In my eyes you are beautiful. Take away all the unnecessary cosmetics he prefers. And show him how beautiful you truly are. If he cannot realize that, then you will be forever masking who you truly are for someone who cannot appreciate your true beauty.
“Meeting you was the best thing that ever happened to me. You made me so happy. I don’t want you to be lost or afraid or anything like that. From here on out, I know things might be hard sometimes. But no matter what, please don’t ever regret the time we spent together.”—Furukawa Nagisa (Clannad Afterstory)